Today is a ROUGH Day for me =(

I've been trying to keep myself busy. I've been trying to keep my mind off the one thing that has upset me for the past 6 years. I lost a VERY Special person in my life 6 years ago today. This day is one of the hardest days of the year for me. This was the day I lost my Grandfather to Lung Cancer. The most amazing person in my life, who always looked up to me. Who was so proud of me for joining the Navy because I was keeping the tradition going in the family. He would tell my father and mother, that I was his GIRL and no one else's. I remember going up to Maryland every weekend I could get the chance from 2002-2004 to visit him. He also would make the trip down from Maryland everytime I came back from deployment to see me come back in. He would take care of my 2002 Ford Focus SE whenever I went on deployment. He helped me get the car and believe me that day I bought my first car was a day I would never forget because I had him with me. My Grandfather helped me so much throughout the years he was here for me. Bowling has always been a special thing for me and him also. That is why it's tough to go bowling nowadays because it reminds me of him so much.

I miss him terribly. I've always had a hole in my heart ever since he passed away. Although, it got a little better and smaller near the end of 2004 when my Grandfather must of seen how torn up I was from missing him. He sent me an angel from heaven to help me. The same year I lost my Grandfather, was the same year I conceived my daughter. My Grandfather sent me the best miracle in the whole entire world. My daughter filled a little piece of that hole up. I wish my Grandfather could've met his Great Granddaughter. He would've loved her. I know he's up in heaven right now watching over us. He's seeing Alexia from up there and watching me too. He's our Guardian Angel. I will forever treasure the memories of us together. I will always remember when I wore my dress blues for you before you passed on. It was your dream to see me in my dress blues one last time, and I made sure that dream came true. I love you, Pop Pop! I will always love you!!!!!!!

Love always and forever your granddaughter,

FranJessca aka Frannie